i love not sleeping...
insecurity. weakness in our own eyes, when we know of the voices and doubts in our heads... but when those are voiced, opportunity for the holy spirit to show us just why we need each other... it seems so trivial sometimes, but all we need is the littlest notion of someone else believing in us, someone else caring for us, someone else acknowledging our presence, our being, our existence, and all the questioning in the world disappears... the Spirit can just work through stubborn hearts, seemingly deaf ears, and thick skulls to bring out the most minute and wonderful moments and statements... although the worries seem ridiculous or sometimes huge, they vanish...
i think this is way we aren't supposed to go it alone... if it was just up to me and God, i wouldn't be where i am right now, who i am right now, and probably even capable to admit that i believe there IS a God. a big one. cuz i can't always hear his voice in my head, my heart... i can hear it when someone else says "how are you?" or gives you a smile, hug, or high five...
all these thoughts sound better in my head, but all in all, God uses us and that's why we need each other... i can't doubt that... when i do and hide away with the kids in my head, will someone please slap me??? thanks :D
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