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re-visiting thoughts that were brought back to my mind via john's blog... yo buddy!
there are days where i remember how blessed i am to be here, in edinburgh, where i'm constantly meeting new people and going on new adventures with them (aka i met a guy in church on sunday and now he's coming with me to st andrews for the weekend cuz we have mutual friends... small world, actually, small island)...
there are days when i'm homesick, for my college life mostly... for the amazing home that 1680 was, for the amazing people that are my life-long friends, for minnesota cold, izzys ice cream, minnesota hot, not being asked if i'm canadian...
there are days when i miss my family, my sisters whom i don't know well enough, my brother whom i can't believe shaves, my parents whom i understand more and more every day without talking to them...
and there are days when i feel like my heart is spread so thin, i want to be here, st paul, fargo, kansas city, antarctica (mostly cuz i've never been there), st. andrews, gramma's house, red willow bible camp, madeline island, canada, grand forks, anywhere warmer than here... and these are the days i lose sight of where i'm at and where i'm going, who i'm with, why i should be here, who should i talk to, how many more people can i meet and how many will i leave? i feel like i'm stretching myself so thin that i don't matter anymore...
yet this kingdom is not lonely, it is not only local but global, it is not only here it is there, and God is with me...
i guess i have to wonder if i'm leaving God's imprint wherever i go?
now i'm getting lost in tangents (thanks john) but so goes it in my mind... happy weekend ya'lls... wherever you are in the world, i love you. :D