following the giver

i have so much. i am so blessed. i wouldn't consider this a high time in my life, or an amazing stronghold in my faith, but being broken, face down in the dirt of this world i have been shown how great our God is. His faithfulness has brought me to the middle of november, surrounded by the love of his kingdom that i left in the usa, brought to me by the power of the internet, and i am now indulging in the glory of his global kingdom and demanding to find the love of his people here.
tufty joked that i was just another american. i can't imagine what it's like to be a student at an "international" university and have all these random american students show up for a semester, touch your life, and then leave (i'll tell you in a few months)... but i've done that. i'm not doing that again. i will not be put in that box -- i'm not going anywhere until God calls me. he called me here for some reason, another city with 24 hour sirens and light pollution and a red light district. you all know i'm a country girl at heart. but that's my comfort zone. God has taken my comfort zone and put it on delay so he can show me how real faith can be. And how real it is. so i'm relying on that knowledge and faith to show me why I'm here, and all i know at the moment is that i'm being called to give. and give and give and give and give. if i have something that you need, ask and i will give it to you, be it my shoes, my hat, my time, my money, my mobile number, anything. i will give it all away because i have a giver that will provide for everything and for all. if i hesitate to give, feel free to rugby tackle me and set my senses straight. I want to give to you, in any way i am called.
We are called to love one another, and believe me, I am scared to love you, put my heart on the line, be vulnerable for a friend, but i will do it for you. For our God. For how great is our God.
and if he isn't your God, i would echo his invite to turn around and stare Him in the face. He's waiting... if you're not ready, he'll still wait.. but he wants you now, he'll take you as you are. broken, dirty, smelly, rebellious, and empty.
How great is our God.